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[20 Aug 2008|03:11pm] |
The goth-kid girl with the extreme 'Let's put a smile on that face!' scar [another case in point that facial scars are...really not particularly terrifying-looking, in my experience, anyway.] in my first hour art class asked me out via note today.
She wasn't particularly a creeper or anything about it, but, we have never spoken before.
I tried to be nice about being like 'Um, no.', and think I handled it...pretty damn gracefully, actually, considering my track record with this type of thing. [Which in the past has tended to involve anything from '...wut?' to 'WHAAAAAT?! D8']
She just very much looks like a person who doesn't need any more 'douche' in her life. And this has a lot less to do with the scars and a lot more to do with the fact that she looks like a miserably unhappy person.
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[20 Aug 2008|11:19am] |
I got the chibwee parts! So we now have the makings for 100 chibwees. These new parts are a bit different, I haven't played with them enough to know if it's better or worse. But either way it's a small difference so we're not like...fucked.
And so everything is officially bought for NDK :D
Who want to go to Ju's house To be slave labor for faeXfor a painting party? I'll try to do something again like last time where we bug everyone a meal or some than.
I'm also going to try to REALLY get things set up for NDK that we can take commissions year around and have a little pamphlet for it.
And so far the last day or work is trauma free :D
( Info off my LJ, but what kind of blogger am I? Apperantly a gender ambiguous one... )
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[19 Aug 2008|10:57pm] |
I've been thinking particularly a lot recently about friends and friendship and connections and bonds recently.
[There are a few things going on right now that lead to this kind of thing coming up a lot in my head.]
I came to the realization a while ago that I am...more than a bit of an elitist. It's not that I'm opposed to meeting new people--I love making new friends--and it's not like it's impossible to become one of 'mine'[honestly, I would think it's pretty easy, to become someone I care about]--but really, I do consider me and mine a cut above the rest. As far as I'm concerned, the people I care about are the best. Hands down. Nobody else is *as* worth my time. And like I said, I like making new friends, I like having lots of people to care about, I'm not interested in shutting everyone else out--usually, talk to me when I'm depressed and I'll probably be singing a different tune--just...I recognize that I do have an 'us--them' thought process. Whether it's just 'us, and them' or actively 'us vs. them'
Anyway, I know that. I'm trying to decide how much I care. Like, if it's something that bothers me. If I feel like it's not right to be that way. 'Cause sometimes I do feel vaguely guilty--and in the past, I have tried to be like 'Well, it's not that I think we're better, per se...'
But I totally do.
This thought process mostly came about because I was feeling like my 'us' was getting too narrow--like I was pushing people away, or..something along those lines.
But I realize I don't think it is. I think my definition of 'us' is changing, to some extent. I think, at this particular point in time, I'm really feeling the concept of 'Different people are there for each other in different ways.' I actually feel very...open, right now, I guess. To bonds and bonding and connections and whatnot.
I also think that I'm starting to define, for myself, more clearly, what is and isn't acceptable in a friendship. That sounds very harsh, but, you know...what I can put up with, and what I can't. What's worth it to keep a connection to a person through, and what isn't.
..I think that's it. Speculation, like I said. Sorry if you read all this thinking I was going to get to a point, instead of just meander around.
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| No I am not Edward. |
[19 Aug 2008|09:06pm] |
I PUT IN MY TWO WEEKS NOTICE~!
And due to the timing, it means I work precisely one more day at that job :D
So like...the real Terra should soon be back and kicking :D
I have an interview at Lane Bryant, a different job at my school (Which would actually involve me working at Central) and if worse come to worse I can whore out my plasma and try to get some short term baby sitting jobs. It'll probably be touch and go, BUT I will not be insane and wanting to stab my eye ball out.
:D
You have no idea how much lighter I feel right now. I had things to update with but...just happy.
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| I forgot how much I fucking love Batman Beyond. |
[18 Aug 2008|09:46pm] |
Bruce: I could tell the voice were fake because they were calling me Bruce Wayne, and that's not what I call myself in my head.
Terry: What DO you call yourself?
Bruce: *old man glare of death*
Terry. Oh...but that's MY name now.
Bruce: Tell that to my subconscious.
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[17 Aug 2008|02:47pm] |
!!! WHY IS THE ICON I NEED ON MY OTHER COMPUTER.
From the Wiki:
Originally in the script, the relationship between the main characters (Tulio and Miguel) was supposed to have more of an implication, with each calling the other by pet names like "darling." This would have heightened the tension when Chel came between them and when they argued about splitting up. The producers and other executives had the pet names and other references cut, but in some versions of the subtitles (which are often taken from original scripts), the pet names can still be seen.
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[16 Aug 2008|06:55pm] |
Courage the cowardly dog is THE MOST TERRIFYING SHIT I HAVE EVER WATCHED.
That is all.
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[16 Aug 2008|10:16am] |
I'm feeling better than I have in a couple of days. No particular reason, I don't think, just this morning it's felt...a little better.
Which considering it's crazy grey outside, there's the possibility of SNOW, I have to be at work in a couple hours, and...nothing has really changed, that's big-ish. :3
Oh, oh, and I want to do this again. Just 'cause I like this meme unreasonably a lot.
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your summer. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs.
1. Snow Patrol: Shut Your Eyes
2.Bodies Without Organs: Sunshine in the Rain
3.Breaking Benjamin: Dance With the Devil
4.Jonas Brothers: SOS
5.Carolina Liar: I'm Not Over
6.Jewel: I'm Sensitive
7.Snow Patrol: It's Beginning to Get to Me (Ignore Grissom/Sarah vid? Just listen to the song.)
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| Sweet. |
[14 Aug 2008|10:11pm] |
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I am soooo full of creative-ness I could explode. I wish I could stay home all day and just write full out and quit my job or pretend I got abducted by something and then write this maddness that is formin in my head but then I would have no money to live with and then I wouldn't be able to feed my writing addiction and then everything would be sad but I'd have a finished manuscript but no social life except for the people who exist in my head and this is a very long sentance so let's end it right here.
*wiggles fingers over keyboard with manic grin* let the writing begin....
In other news... not much really. There's a guy working at Purdy's now, his name's Joel, and he's interesting-- gay, and his boyfriend is cute >.< but what I found a bit rude was the woman who called me a spoiled brat kept on calling Joel a fruitcake. Not to his face though, and I seriously wanted to tell her to shut up and stop calling him that. Really irritated me, actually...
Nothin' else interesting, nope nope. CLAMP is eating my brains with TRC so far-- manic, absolutely manic.
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[14 Aug 2008|07:53pm] |
Fuck. I'm sorry, to anyone I had plans with this weekend.
Fuck.
I yelled at my dad to get the fuck over himself earlier and I'm grounded for this weekend. Sorry, Amanda. Sorry Terra, and Syd. Fuck. I'm sorry. I'm fucking sorry.
Especially to you, Syd, and you have every right to be mad at me about this, but at this point there is too much pride at stake for me to apologize and try to beg out of it.
Maybe I'll be more open to that by tomorrow or Saturday. Or else I'll claim I have work and come visit you.
I just can't even fucking deal with this. I can't deal with the way my dad acts like I'm so fucking wrong for having priorities that are different from his. I'm so fucking tired for him acting like I'm his child first and foremost, and all other aspects of ME are vastly secondary to that. I'm fucking sick of being the one who's supposed to keep this goddamn house when I have SET UP MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE SO I NEVER HAVE TO BE A HOMEMAKER BECAUSE I NEVER WANTED TO BE. It's just not even fucking fair that he can push and push and push and I never even get a word in edgewise, and then when I DO, it's me snapping, like this, and he has the authority to punish me for it.
Fuck.
I'm so sorry, guys.
I'll try to unfuck things as soon as I calm down.
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[14 Aug 2008|04:32pm] |
First day of school:
Terra called me at like 1 am to share this song with me which I've just listened to about 7 times back to back and...I don't really remember what else we talked about but it was totally worth it to be woken up for ♥
AP Physics:
-->Cody and I sit next to each other! ♥
-->He decided that everything in physics would be expressed as a function of William Shatner (since that's my point of reference for everything...)
-->I figured out the formula for Speed! It was something like... ((ghei(scarf)+number of times he cries in the movie/BAMF driving))big brother-centric angst.
Adv. Drawing and Painting:
-->No opinion on the new teacher yet, but she looks intensely like Alan Cummings.
AP Lit:
--> Me: I would be a dolphin. 'Cause I could take out a shark. With my friends.
...If it came to that.
Architectural Drawing:
-->Teacher: What class is this? ...Oh, Architectural Drawing, ok. Yeah, ok. This is one of my favorite classes. Not you guys. Just the class itself.
5th:
-->I dropped the shit out of German 4, so I have double lunch with Amanda AND Cody! ♥♥
Art III:
--> Fine. Unremarkable. Did like nothing today, but it sounds like we'll do some cool stuff as the semester goes on...
Statistics:
-->Actually seems somewhat bearable for a math class, except for the extreme presence of douchebag and bimbo there. I'm hoping like everyone in the class just ignores me.
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[11 Aug 2008|12:55pm] |
Pick a fandom and I will tell you who:
1. I would bake cupcakes for:
2. trust with the keys to my car (if I had a car):
3. put thumbtacks on their chair:
4. have a crush on:
5. pack up and leave if they moved next door:
6. vote for President:
7. pick as my partner in a buddy movie:
8. pair up:
9. vote off the island and into the volcano:
10. wheedle into fixing my MP3 player:
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[11 Aug 2008|12:15am] |
Failblog is a hindrance to getting my homework done.
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[10 Aug 2008|10:50pm] |
Snagged from </a></b></a>![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) intherain
Pick a fandom and I will tell you who:
1. I would bake cupcakes for:
2. trust with the keys to my car (if I had a car):
3. put thumbtacks on their chair:
4. have a crush on:
5. pack up and leave if they moved next door:
6. vote for President:
7. pick as my partner in a buddy movie:
8. pair up:
9. vote off the island and into the volcano:
10. wheedle into fixing my MP3 player:
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[10 Aug 2008|04:40pm] |
Bev~!
I got all your costumes pretty much. All the important parts anyway. HOWEVER-if you want the epic Jiraiya wig you have to decided fast cause they hand make them.
I'm super happy with the trixie bits :3
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[10 Aug 2008|11:19am] |
Snagged from otoselkie
Pick a fandom and I will tell you who:
1. I would bake cupcakes for:
2. trust with the keys to my car (if I had a car):
3. put thumbtacks on their chair:
4. have a crush on:
5. pack up and leave if they moved next door:
6. vote for President:
7. pick as my partner in a buddy movie:
8. pair up:
9. vote off the island and into the volcano:
10. wheedle into fixing my MP3 player:
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